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Angry at myself
2004-04-27 / 8:44 p.m.
I have spent all day being an absolute miserable person. I feel horrible, my kids are avoiding me and quite frankly I think I am going crazy. I kid you not, I think I heard voices today. What is going on?
I did come to the conclusion that I am really angry with myself. I have let situations get completely out of control and I am not sure how to regain it. I am furious with myself about losing my job. What an idiot. I fell for the set up hook line and sinker. I know I should be relieved that I am out of there but I'm not. It wasn't my timing. Yes it was my decision to quit but it wasn't like I had much choice. All I wanted was 13 months. That's it. That's all I needed to finish my degree and move on. I am still finishing my degree but I feel like I have unfinished business that I can't take care of. It literally is driving me insane. What a mess I have made of my life. Where do I even begin to know how to fix it.
Bear with me as I work through this. I know somewhere deep inside me is the human being I once was waiting to be let out. I hope she survives.
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